Where do I begin with this... Never would I have thought that I would be in this position, but I am. I'm going to be starting a new position with an incredible organization. I leave for vacation to Nantucket in less than a week. And I would be leaving this trip with the love of my life.
This all ended when the words, "I'm no longer happy," came out of his mouth. Every moment I inhale, I'm surprise that air is coming into my lungs. I honestly feel abandoned, left to wonder aimlessly blind in an unknown world.
I'm a catch, right? I have a great career, I'm honest, I'm loving, I'm God fearing, I'm committed. But I guess now I'm damaged. I know (at least want to believe) that one day I will be ok, but at this current moment I don't see that happening.
What do I do from this point on? Do I continue to pursue what I believe is meant for me? Just lost, completely lost.
You should definitely do what's right for you. Unfortunately you can't control what other people do, but you can control how you handle it. Do the best you can to push forward and continue your journey. You are NOT damaged and actually seem like a good guy. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteSometimes when we get our heart broken, we wallow where we are. We sit there and look at where we want to be. We look at what it'll take to be ok again and just the THOUGHT of the journey makes us tired. Makes us cry and think "I don't wanna do this." Buy every morning you get out of bed (and you MUST get out of bed), the second your feet hit the ground, just keep putting one foot in front of the other and you'll make it. You'll last. Heartache will get tired before you do.
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